Monday, November 24, 2008
wake up call!!!
12:36:00 AM
i feel that i am the stupidest person on earth rite nw. some things are just that obvious and yet i fail to see them. halo?! its rite in front of mi, am i blind??? maybe i am realli blind. i am blinded by my selfishness and ignorant. i realli REALLI got to learn to grow up. life is mine, onli i control my life. i guess i have a lot to learn.but nw, i am still not gd enough. even aft trying to change so much of myself to be better. i dun wish to be the best, i onli wish that i can improve.i learn that change is nth, for i will gain some and lose the exact amt. enough of all these lame shit!!! I HAD ENOUGH OF MYSELF.all the things must end, rite nw!!! i must settle all my old scores and unfinished business. by the 22nd of December, i give myself my word as a human being, i WILL start fresh. i shall not turn back again. i will be strong and determined. though tough, but i will endure.i am not angry, neither am i sad. i am desperate. i cannot let myself go on like this, i still have to carry on my journey. my feelings are gone, and so is my heart. these are things that i have to find back. cos without them, i am just an empty case. no passion, no love, no emotions, no nth...i will find back all i lost. and then, i can finally MOVE ON>>>
