Wednesday, March 19, 2008
My Life, only a small world of my own...
9:10:00 PM
School had just reopened and i am back to being busy. okay, now let mi recall. the sitting arrangement in my class has changed. as usual, i am still siting at the back and beside mi is hazel. till now i still feel nth abt this change, maybe its becos i have no close frens in the class bahx. so i am neither disappointed nor excited. dots. i went bowling twice this wk, and still counting. mon was wif sinyi, weiqi, daniel and jerald. it was very sian as everyone was doing their own things during the whole thing. so didnt really enjoy that part. but at least i had a gd dinner wif daniel and hokit at sumo house. maybe its becos i communicate better when onli guys bahx. lol. and 2dae, i went wif bingyi. i even taught bingyi how to bowl and the results came out to be quite satisfying. bingyi was able to break his high score and now his new high score is 75, congrats to him. dots. thats basically wat happened in my life for the past few daes larx. its lame and its boring. i look forward to a more meaningful wkend and hopefully i will finish some work. lollol. it has been so sad ofr mi since school reopened. cos no more free time. sian~ i was actually hoping for more free time to sort out my thoughts. they are still in quite a mess. ZZZ. but i am sure that i get them sorted out some time sooner or later de. so i shall wait patiently for that one fine dae to come. lol. my hws are piling, but i just cant be bothered. i dun feel like doing any of them lehx. they waste brain cells and they make mi frustrated. i just feel so lost and lack of interest when it comes to studies. haix haix. i notice the drastic change in mi. i became more anti-social and very moodless. even when i smile, it is onli out of politeness. distances between mi and my frens are widening, but yet i did nth. i am not sure if they even realise. i noe the prob lies in mi, but i dunnoe how to solve it. sometimes i feel like an empty shell. onli on the outside, but theres nth on the inside. there is this hollowness in mi that i not sure wat it really is. does anyone noe how to cure hollowness??? care to share??? lol. well. like someone once told mi 'theres no point thinking so much when u already noe that the conclusion of all the thinking is going to be nth' and i believe its true. therefore, i shall try to do tat. last but not least happy bdae to hazel and zoelyn, 2dae is their bdae. so nice to actually noe tat your fren is actually born on the same dae as u, it feels gd......
